About Me

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful

Assalamualaikum wa-rahmatullah

I am a Muslimah trying to improve myself in light of my deen, for the sake of Allah(S.W.T). I’m definitely not a scholar but just another slave of Allah who’s knowledge is pretty limited but Alhumdulillah, I’ve been trying to put an effort to learn about the Sunnah way of doing things.. I’m just another muslimah trying to improve herself and strengthen my Iman, with the guidance of the Almighty.

Alhumdulillah, This blog comes as a result of my journey from a girl who’s been lost in the darkness of dunya to a woman who found peace and contentment in the Light of Islam .. with the blessings of the Almighty- Allah(S.W.T).

I’m in pursuit of peace.. Peace of heart, mind and soul!.. Peace attained by submitting to the only one God – Allah (SWT). Alhumdulillah.

Other than my thoughts on my life as a humble servant of Allah(S.W.T).. this blog will also serve as a ‘back-up’ (if i may call it that).. of articles, posts, videos, etc which I’ve found interesting and helpful.

P.S. While you are reading my posts or articles that I have shared, if you happen to like even one of them please do take a minute to make dua for me and my family. Jazakallahu Khair!

Forgiveness : The Glue for a Broken Heart

Crash.

Bang.

Smash.

‘What was that?!’

That was the sound of a once sound heart, shattering into a million pieces. Imagine you are the person carrying that heart: covered in pain and soaked in tears. Maybe you don’t have to imagine, because maybe that is your heart.

We are the broken-hearted.

Betrayal, oppression, deception, whatever it may be that happened to us—the result is the same, a broken heart at the hand of a human. A broken heart that feels like it can never be fixed, and it was entirely someone else’s fault. It would be enough if they had just hurt us, and all we had to do is deal with the pain that came from their actions, but no. Rather, the hurt, the pain, the brokenness…it brought out the worst in us, allowing us to see our own faults, and painful ones at that. How do we go on? How do we move on with life and shift our focus back to the One who deserves it? How do we stop obsessing over the wrongs that occurred and start focusing on the only One who should be obsessed over? One word: Forgiveness.

When a person is soaked in sin and wants to return to Allah subhanahu wa ta`ala (exalted is He), they begin with repentance. The person whole-heartedly turns to Allah, asking Him to forgive utterly and completely, even though the asker may not be deserving. Likewise, the path back to Allah (swt) after a severely broken heart, at the hand of a human, is forgiveness.

When it comes to forgiveness, the key is shifting how we see forgiveness. As always, Allah (swt) has given us a beautiful tool to make this shift, and that is the story of Prophet Yusuf `alayhi as-salaam (peace be upon him).

Of the many fruitful parts of the story of Prophet Yusuf (as), is that of his being wronged by the wife of his master. She attempted to seduce our beloved Prophet Yusuf (as). Not only did she attempt to seduce him, but she landed him in jail by blaming him of the unthinkable instead of taking the blame! IMAGINE! This is a woman whom, as the wife of his master, he was supposed to be able to trust. This was a woman whom he served during the day. Yet when her desires took over, she wronged him many times over!

Despite all of this, Prophet Yusuf (as) did not act wrongfully, nor did he hold a grudge. Why? Prophet Yusuf (as) knew the reality of forgiveness. When all was exposed and the truth revealed, Yusuf (as) made a revolutionary statement. He said: “I do not free myself from all blame. Truly, the nafs (base self) is inclined to evil, except for those who my Lord grants His Mercy. Truly, my Lord is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”

Allahu Akbar! (God is Greater!) A huge, humbling, life-changing lesson we can take from his statement is: You are not the oppressor in this situation only because Allah (swt) has blessed you with His Mercy. Every soul has the ability to wrong others, every soul has the ability to be the oppressor, and only Allah’s mercy prevents that.

The next time we begin to feel this immense and absolute anger towards the person who has harmed us—let’s make that shift, and forgive. Forgive the one who has wronged us not because that person deserves it; rather, forgive them as a sign of gratitude to Allah (swt). Forgive as a symbol of our thanking Him for blessing us to be of those who have never thought of hurting a person in the manner that we have had to endure. Forgive as a symbol of our thanking Him for making us the oppressed and not the oppressors. There is no sin in being the oppressed; rather, Allah tells us that He is with the one who has been wronged and is constantly answering their du`a’ (supplication). But what of the oppressor? They have the anger of Allah (swt) and the displeasure of Allah (swt). And realize that the one who has oppressed you has oppressed themselves more. For it is that person who will have to stand in front of Allah (swt) on the Day of Judgment and have their oppression accounted for, if they are not of those who have repented. So on that Day, they will be their own greatest victims.

Forgive as a statement that says, ‘Oh Allah I’m not forgiving them for their own sake, rather I am forgiving them as a sign of gratitude to You for steering me clear of those desires. I’m forgiving them out of my love for You. I’m forgiving them because I know You love it when a slave of Yours is merciful to others and I want to be of the ones that You love. My desires tell me to wish evil for them and to hold this grudge, but I put You over my own desire and I forgive them.’

Pray for those who hurt you. Pray for those who do not accept you. Love them for the sake of God. Pray that they realize their wrongs before they face their Lord. Pray that no one ever has to go through the same thing you did at the hands of this person. Love your oppressor for the sake of God, because love is the only emotion that is strong enough to penetrate a hardened heart, but know it will take time. Perhaps years, but you will be a better person because you chose to take the higher route: Forgiveness.

When you say “I Love Allah”

When you say “I Love Allah”

When you say “I love Allah”, do you actually mean it? Do you fully understand the meaning of such love? Do you know how to love Allah?

To know how to love God is very easy… Not everyone who says “I love Allah of course” sincerely does so. When you declare your love to Allah, then your actions should be in parallel with your words… Are they?

To sincerely love Allah, you must sincerely follow His messenger, for it is through Muhammad (PBUH) that we can learn how to love Allah. Allah told us Muslims that by following Muhammad (PBUH) we will be loved by Allah for seeking His love… (Al Imran)

So in order to fully love Allah, obeying His messenger is the golden key to unlock all doors towards salvation of the soul.

Obeying Allah is by obeying His messenger, since God ordered us to do so… How do we obey Muhammad (PBUH) if we neglect most of what ha had adivsed us to do, and then say that we do indeed love Allah? Obeying Muhammand (PBUH) is by doing what he had told us to do and avoiding what he prevented us from doing. This is following his “Sunnah”…

Prophet Muhammad is the only way to show us how Allah is pleased and what Allah likes. Through him, we can gain the ability to perform whatever is necessary to please Allah. Allah had given us the chance of knowing how to love Him through Muhammad (PBUH) who taught us in his daily life how to love Allah more than anyone or anything in this life.

Therefore, this is a continuous challenge, a struggle against the devil that tries by all means to disencourage us, to let us lose hope, to make us believe that it is a very hard thing to do, and to convince us that this obedience is a difficult task beyond our ability… Don’t let the devil disencourage you, or put you down… Be sure that Allah will always guide you to His path once you decide to walk that road towards Him…

To love Allah, to love His messenger is the true faith. In this concept, you can truly achieve the greatest happiness of the soul, which knows no boundaries at all… nothing can ever stand between you and this goal, because Allah Himself is guiding you and helping you… You make one step towards Allah, He makes a lot more towards you… You change one little thing in yourself to please Allah, He will help you change more to gain His love… Further more, Allah will order his creatures, any kind of creatures to love you as well….

To truly love Allah, you need to get rid of any doubt that you are alone on this journey… Be patient and try tasting this little sweetness life can offer you and endure the little sadness it compells you to face… This struggle doesn’t mean at all that Allah is angry at you or does not love you… On the contrary, it does mean that Allah loves you and He chose you to see how much You love Him… How much are you willing to take and endure to pass the test of life with patience and by being satisfied with whatever Allah brings you and puts in your way.

After all, any pain we live, is a way of purification from sins… the slightest pain of a thorn in a finger is a way to erase sins… Imagine the more pain you face along your journey, the more sins are erased, the more faults are wiped off your page… We all make mistakes, we all commit things we can ‘t always be proud of, even between ourselves and our reflection in the mirror.. Allah knows everything done, the way you’ve felt while doing it and the circumstances while doing it… The point is not to be judged… but to see how can you make it up,…. will you wake up and discover that you should not just feel guilty about it but try to erase it… by the good deeds and going back to Allah, returning to His path and asking Him and only Him for forgiveness… You don’t need to tell anyone what you’ve done… Allah kept it a secret, why should you anounce it in public…. Allah will preserve the veil on your secret and simply forgive you, for you, slave, by asking Allah for forgivness, you acknowledge that there is indeed a God who punishes sinners and forgives them too, once they return to Him, with hands raised up to the sky asking for salvation and forgivness….Isn’t this to show how merciful He is…? Isn’t this a way to show us how easy it could be to be as pure as a baby without sins… once your forgiven…? This shows how Allah loves us….

To love Allah and through obeying His messenger (PBUH), you are following the correct path towards Jannah. Isn’t this what we all aspire… Paradise? Eternal paradise…? Don’t we all dream of its endless pleasure and joy?

It is costly to achieve… it is based upon patience and submitting to God’s will. To know how you truly love Allah you need to ask yourself a question everytime you do something:

Will Allah be pleased with this deed? Will this make Him happy with me? Will I make His messenger angry by doing it…?

Or you can simply ask yourself, if I meet Muhammad (PBUH) now, as I’m wearing this, doing that, saying that…. etc… will I be proud or ashamed..?

If you leave a prayer, will this please Allah? As long as you’re sure of the answer NO, then you know whether you are in this particular moment loving Allah the way you should or not.. Same concept in saying if I do my prayers on itme, will this make Allah pleased with my deeds? As long as your answer is YES, then be proud of loving Allah the way you should, the way He wants you to do so. This was a simple example of course there is a lot more than just the 5 prayers and the fasting and the dealing with people, and ….etc….it is always about deeds and hearts… along with the intentions for these deeds..

I believe that you should not fear what you say or do; or say or do what you fear… Do what you can be facing the whole world while you’re doing it.. this only proves that you are brave enough to take responsibility for all your actions, and be confident that any deed you actually make is done for Allah’s satisfaction… and of course for loving it… don’t you lose this feeling of loving what you do while doing it… then and only then, you will have a cost for everything you do… nothing will be done for free,……. Yes.. the cost is little things in Paradise with each word, each gesture, each whisper, what you do alone or with people, anything will have a price… one minute can simply give you thousands of golden trees in Jannah without you being aware of it… one little deed, that you didn’t notice could be a great deal after life…

So when you say “I love Allah” be sure you sincerely mean it the way you are supposed to love Him.